Scared means the enemy is at work

Moving towards a reconciliation is going well. We are at a good place, a place I never thought we would be now. BUT, this is when the enemy starts his assault. I will not allow his negative thoughts to interfere. Last weekend my husband actually came to meet my son and me out of town. This was a new event in these last 20 months. Prior to this he would have excuses and never show up. He also left town to go visit his parents this week...another first in this journey. He also called me the entire time he was gone...another first. Then yesterday he called and we went to breakfast and he returned to the house to wash cars and visit for a while. No agenda. He kissed and hugged me. It was last night that the enemy started his assault. I will not allow this to derail me from my walk with God. I will not allow this to derail a possible reconciliation. I have believed all along--although sometimes not nearly as strongly as I should have--that we would reconcile. Now I realize that we still have work to do. I am not deluding myself into thinking we are beyond the hard work. Last night I told him I was scared and he told me he was scared too. We are experiencing similar feelings. I still believe God's promise to me of reconciliation. I will continue to keep my focus on HIM and His word. Thanks be to God!

Returning to believing in God's promises

The last few weeks have been wonderful and confusing in terms of my relationship with my husband. I was convinced that God was opening doors to lead me to divorce him, then all of a sudden the doors were closed. I was confused and bewildered. Richard contacted me and we had a long conversation. He began to call me and make an effort. I am very weary and leary. I even told him that if he wanted me because Lesia doesn't want him anymore then he was not pursuing me for the right reason and this should end. He said that was not the case. I am struggling to believe him. More effort on his part...more struggle on my part. His efforts are small, baby steps...my struggle feels greater than it probably is. Then today, I see this Joyce Meyer post... "You can't have real love unless you’re willing to forgive. Love keeps giving the other person another chance, and it keeps trusting them over and over again, expecting them to do the right thing the next time." I guess this is God saying keep on with the chances. My promise to you that December afternoon was reconciliation. There was a time when you quit believing that, not completely, but close to it. You have returned to your spiritual base and that has made you stronger. Continue to believe.