Listening to God's still voice

So, after learning of what I considered to be the ultimate betrayal--a vacation trip with a woman and her children--I contacted an attorney and had divorce papers drawn up. I don't think my husband believed I would do that, but then I NEVER thought he would cheat on me in this way and turn away from our marriage. He seemed angry, shocked, poopy-acting and defeated when I told him. When he was texting me about this trip, after I asked him point blank, he seemed flip. Guess he thought I would continue to allow this behavior. Even though I had spoken of my requirements for a reconciliation. My contacting an attorney and talking with him about specifics of a divorce settlement must have shown him that I do have a limit and it had been reached. He is now wanting to reconcile. He has made a couple of decisions that indicate he is beginning to move in that direction. Do I trust this? Not really sure I do. Do I really want the reconciliation? I love him and I believe we are meant to be together, but I am so very scared that he will betray me again. I just don't know if my heart can take another hit like the ones I have endured for the past 22 months. But, I hear God telling me to take this chance. I know I heard God tell me to contact the attorney and move forward with divorce, so why would my Lord now be telling me to be still and see where this reconciliation attempt is heading. God, I love you so much, but I feel so confused. I know if I will immerse myself in your word, I will find my answer and peace. I will continue to keep my focus on Jesus.